Today is my husbands birthday! I love him so much. Unfortunatly I am feeling a little down. I sometimes think about the person I was able to be when I was alone. I could talk to whomever I want. I miss my guy friends sometimes. A lot of them had problems tthat I loved to help them with just cause thats the type of person I am not ccause I liked them in a different way. I dont know.... I believe that to get somewhere in life u gotta know people. I feel that ive lost a lot of connections. Is getting married and having children not useing drugs or smoking or drinking worth it????